Internalized propaganda manifests as alienation and conflict among activists ?

Perhaps as activists some of us are still undoing the propaganda we’ve internalized over the years. Even as we strive in our daily lives to replace those values with what we think are better values, they still operate in our minds subconsciously. Often w/o us knowing it, they manifest themselves in our alienation from one another as activists, and in our entanglement in petty, self-defeating conflicts that detract from the effectiveness of our work.